State Of Mind

Emotions are running wild,
Taking complete charge of me,
From head to toe,
Don’t really know what to do,
My mind is playing games,
Whose rules I can’t understand,
I need God’s guidance,
Only he can show me the light.

Coming through is not all that hard,
Moving on is a part of life,
Then how come I can’t convince myself,
To just stop and start again fresh,
Why do I keep thinking?
Thinking of the same things,
Over and over again.

All this is running in my mind,
Running like the blood in the veins,
Like the salt in the ocean,
Like the bees and the honey,
Like the scent of the flowers,
That just can’t stay apart,
Or else they’ll loose their meaning,
Their very existence and die!

Should I say I’m loosing it all?
Or maybe not,
It’s just a state of mind,
I will come of it,
Sooner or later I will,
Time will heal it all,
All I need is to come out,
I just have to say it out loud,
Need to plan it right,
Maybe I do need God’s light.

How should I say it?
Should I or shouldn’t I?
All this confusion,
All this distraction,
Everything is running through my mind,
And even then I smile,
I laugh, I have fun,
I do all the things,
Things that make me happy,
Or I jus like to believe they do.

Well I am happy,
Happy because of a lot of reasons,
Reasons I can share,
And some I choose not to,
But all said and done,
Life is pretty,
Sad stuff is there,
It’s only there because of me,
I am holding them inside,
Afraid to admit it,
Afraid to scream it out loud,
That’s maybe why I need God’s light.

I shouldn’t care if someone’s listening,
Maybe they are or maybe not?
I don’t know that,
Then how can I decide?
Assume their reactions before hand?
I should go on and live my life,
Live the way I want to,
Maybe the light is inside me,
And I am just afraid,
Too afraid to see it,
Afraid to even believe it’s there.

I should believe in it,
Miracles do happen,
They happen every time,
I just need to have faith,
Faith is above all.
Now, tell me,
Isn’t it all just a state of mind?